When Memories Overcomes Us

If I could ask God a question it would be this..

Why do people have to die?

Why is it that when we have made it.

When we fall in love,

Or we win.

Those moments never last forever.

When they kissed us for the first time.

Or that intimate moment that should have lasted forever.

Memories. They keep us together.

They hold us. They build us. Remind us of the places we have been.

The people we’ve meet.

The pain, the joy. The up and the down.

Our thoughts shad a light to our life’s choices.

Who you wish to become and where you go.

Good or bad, they are important.

But what if your memories become too much?

When all you want to do is forget.

Not just the bad; But the good, the memories, the moments, the past.

To forget it all.

They say that the end of one thing marks the beginning of a new one.

 Like when you’re done with a chapter in a book and you move on to the next one.

But they never really say what happens to the people left in previous chapter now do they.

Ever sat down and thought about a moment you could take back.

Maybe to say that you were sorry? Pay a debt that had long kept? Keep a promise you once made?

Unbreak a heart? Or even just to ask a question. Like why? Or simply when?

Why did they have to leave? When would we ever see them again?

It takes a lot for people to walk away from us. Leave alone to die.

In my mind I play a picture of a mother sleeping on her death bed,

About to die, knowing well that her children have no one to turn to.

Or a woman who waited for so long to find someone who truly loved her for who she rather than how she looked. Only for him to be taken away.

Love. That’s what reminds us. That’s what keeps us attached to them.

Even in their absence we feel there presence.

We are reminded of the face, their smell, their likes and dislikes.

They inspire us through their memories.

Their lives guide us to our unseen future.

That one day, when we also meet the same fate, our lives will guide those we leave behind. Those who will be reminded of who we were by their memories.

That we get to see that, it’s not a curse. But actually a blessing.

These memories of ours. Both good and bad.

Live better. You don’t know who will remember you.

It's Not Easy............

It’s not easy sometimes,

Being yourself

Being who you are even in the presence of adversary.

In the presence of shame and defeat.

To be yourself, to be true

Even when everybody, including yourself,

Don’t expect you to be.

It’s not easy,

Looking past the pain.

Past all the lies and the hurt

The distraction and the loss

Through all the ups and downs,

That brought all the good but sometimes came with a whole lot of bad.

It’s not easy,

Looking past all the doubt

Looking past all the worries and fears

Passed the un-waiting events 

that await our near future

It’s not easy.

But even in the midst of all the

Pain, doubt, worries and fears

We have strength,

The strength to look passed it,

To overcome them,

To remain true even when everyone including us,

Don’t expect us to be.

We are capable, we are powerful

Infinite in the endless possibilities that our strength can overcome.

Our strength isn't just the spirit that dwells within us

No, no it’s not.

It’s our families,

It’s the things we love

It’s the dreams that wake us up every morning,

It’s our capacity to be true, to be ourselves

Even when everyone including us,

Don’t expect us to.

THIS WAS MEANT FOR YOU..............
CAUSE YOU ARE STRONG.....
UR FAV STKR

What we search for................

SEARCHING

Nobody ever says this but we are always searching;  Searching for something.

We search for the things that are within and the things that are on the outside.

We search for the things that are visible, that we can touch yet we also search for the unseen.  What can only be felt?

We search for peace, because of what it provides

We search for understanding, to gain wisdom

We search for patience, so we can get the strength to wait.

We search for truth,

We search for guidance, cause in it, we find direction

We search for courage, some to show their worth, while others just to find the will to move on to a new day.

We seek compassion, because it leads us to a road of forgiveness.

Yet we also seek forgiveness, because it leads us to freedom.

We all seek riches and wealth , some; because of the security it provides , the endless assurance of always being good, better, best, without ever having to worry about a day when it will be bad. Others seek them because they are a way out. A way out of the life we have, and in to the life we want. While others do it for the power.

LOVE

And others search for love. That endless feeling that beats deep within our hearts;  That which if could be described, no amount of words could quantify. We search for that of which we hear and many of us never see, or worse, take for granted. We search for love for many reasons. Reasons that even surpass the number of stars in the sky yet all of us have one thing in common. That we all search for love because we understand, sooner or later, that love is everything.

People spent their entire lives searching for one or more of this things. While to others, it just happens. We live our live hopping one day that we find what we are searching for. That one thing that will make it all worth it. The strangles, the pains, the heartbreaks. The rumors , haters and even the long sacrifices.

Last year I found what most people dream of finding. I found courage, peace, freedom and love.

PEACE

When we find what we search for, we have a since of change that follows us. A change that prompts us to prepare for more. More change. More things to look forward to. Iv changed  and that’s no lie. And i'm hopping to change even more in to the man I destined to be.

 That’s why this year, will be my year of EVOLUTION(change).